Caught him in between screams to give the illusion of calm.
What he really looked like all day.
I had a moment in the morning when it was just Luca and me in my room and I realized that Mom wasn't going to be here in person. I allowed myself to cry for a minute. She had been to all the other blessings, and while I am sure she was there in spirit, it felt wrong for her to not be there. But I imagine that is how life will be for now on- happy moments tinged with just a little sadness. But still an overwhelming happiness, for we are truly blessed and have many people who love us.